We live in a society that wants things now. We are continually bombarded with the message that we deserve instant gratification. If we pray for something we want it now. If we buy something we want it now. If we order carry out we want it now. If we start a new job we want to be a manager or owner right now. You get the idea. Life was never designed for us to have instant gratification. I believe that human beings were designed to work hard for everything.
My newly adopted little sister is horrible when it comes to patience. She demands everything right now! I know it is because of hurt she experienced in her past, but I am constantly reminding her to “grow some patience” that her needs will be met just not instantly. Slowly but surely she is learning that patience is good and instant satisfaction in not a must in life. Every time I give her that advice I am reminding myself that I need to do the same thing. See, I want my shunt now. I want to be able to exercise again right now. I want to be able to do everything right now.
It takes time to retrain your body to handle the ups and downs of the high CSF pressure. It takes time to learn how to live with the rollercoaster ride called “Unshunted Hydrocephalus”. It takes time to heal spiritually. It takes time for a broken heart to heal. It takes time for nerves to heal. As I start to feel myself having the “now” attitude I have to remind myself “It takes time”. The “it takes time” attitude has brought me to a new level of peace and freedom!
I feel like a little girl standing in front of a giant mountain and I know I have to get to the other side. I tend to be terrified. How is little ol’ me going to make it?!? By remembering it takes time. I make sure to look at the one step in front of me (not the whole mountain). One step, one minute, one day at a time. The steps I take today will prepare me for the steps I take tomorrow and so on, until I make it to the other side. If I trip today and scrape my knee then, clean up the scratched knee, let it go, and keep on going tomorrow. No need to beat myself up over a bad day. After all, I am only human.